It is a modern quest, for a modern identity, in a modern time. In a global society, there are few whose parents/ancestors share the same race, ethnicity, economic status, morals, and religion. There are few who can claim “home” as one town, one state or even one country. There are few family histories that don’t come with adventure and chaos, shame and joy. And even if there is a person who met this simple description, when has an identity search (or a search for one's own "truth") ever been a simple endeavor? The
I am the product of a long line of opinionated, flawed, and strong women. My grandmother raised nine children while working full-time as a night nurse. Her daughters, my six Aunts (and mom) pursued careers, managed family farms and family businesses, raised copious amounts of children, survived difficult marriages and still can’t help but cross their legs and giggle at almost every opportunity.
These women are my
As I was looking at the maps in the book, I noticed a telling similarity between the locations of these sects and the birth and marriage locations of my great grandmother. I compared and dissected the similarities with both amazement and dismay. My great grandmother lived before these sects became disassociated with mainstream culture, but her closeness to their beginnings made me wonder who this person “really” was.
Emma Isabella Carroll married my great grandfather at the age of 21. He was 53. She was his third wife. They were married in
In my grandfather’s history, he speaks lovingly and lauditorily of his mother mentioning her frugalness, her strength, her faith. He said, “She will always stand out in my mind as one of the great women of that day. She was active in the church and took part in public affairs.”
I can read the words of my grandfather and guess at their accuracy. I can look at her genealogical records (although she is shown to be born after she was married). I can think of her, wonder, try to empathize. And yet, she is silent. I have no record of her. Maybe with all of her responsibilities, she just didn’t have the luxury of reflection. But, her account might have illuminated something about being a woman in that culture, at that time, something about fundamentalism, and maybe through the often distorted mirror of history, something about me, about my culture, about my beliefs.
Was the religion she was raised in responsible for the fundamentalist culture to follow? Was the “weirdness” or “immorality” of polygamy an oddity of excess or ascetics? What does an off-shoot say about the mainstream? Does it reflect weakness in the institution or the individual?
As an active member of the mainstream church from which these fundamentalist off-shoots sprung, these questions are haunting for me. They are part of my own hybrid aesthetics. They are what make me, like Derek Walcott, wonder what the twilight says.
“But I see what it is, you are not from these parts, you don’t know what our twilights can do. Shall I tell you?
--Samuel Beckett, Waiting for Godot (Walcott 3)[2]
[1] Bressler, Charles E., ed. Literary Criticism: An Introduction to Theory and Practice. 4th Edition.
I will include full references within the text of each blog post.
[2] Walcott, Derek. What the Twilight Says: Essays.
1 comment:
Mara,
What a stimulating post!
I appreciate your invocation of Bakhtin in opening salvo, which frames the transnational, yet intimately personal, questions in such a provocative way. As you point out, such unlikely categories as theory and polygamy intersect with Walcott's project. If this apparent universality makes Walcott accessible to readers unlikely to identify with "the post-colonial condition" in the Caribbean, then it also provokes resentment and charges of inauthenticity among some folks who have obvious stakes and finely ground axes in what constitutes Caribbean "L"iterature. Walcott throws a spanner into the tug-of-war between the center and the periphery.
I am intrigued by the parallel dynamic you observe in the LDS church that causes tensions in its historiography, which is truest, perhaps, when it is "illogical, derivative, contradictory." And there I believe Walcott would be pleased at your signing off with Beckett.
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